Fuck

I've realized where i went horribly rye with my drawing skills....I was always so intent on doing it myself with no help what so ever so i could be a 'self taught' artist.Well fuck me sideways i realized that yes after a while i did good with no help BUT there's so many things i feel i should of already been good at doing at the age of 16.For example if i free hand pictures i feel that the anatomy looks so weird and off whenever i see other drawings im like man their anatomy is good they add in the bumps,curves and ridges where i don't even know to put. I feel like there was a big part in my drawings that I've been missing because i never looked for references. See im drawing mine n my friends characters currently because their bodies are all different so im using a reference to all the bodies and jus looking at them their so much different from any other pictures in my books because their off the top of my head n memory when it comes to bodies. Fuck i feel so like let down with myself that i'm not at the full potential i should be at for age 16...i dunno maybe im just to hard on myself

New Start

Well i decided to finally make one of these little fucks,i would write on my Tumblr but i dunno i feel its more for creeping with others about pictures ;) Anyways today was great my supppppper 'Kawaii'xD friend Cindy came over and we watched a movie,tumblred,watch/listen to videos and she did my makeup like Ruki from The Gazette! Im not use to such dark,mainly black eye shadows but i like it :3 So tomorrow my two friends Angel n Tori are coming up to visit im really excited i haven't seen them since The New Years party n that shit got crazy haha. Anyways im real stoked we always have such a fun time,i just gotta figure out how to do my hair,makeup n clothes...Alrighty this is all for today im going back to Tumblr then redye my hair because the pink is very orange Dx